Okay, perhaps I am making it more dramatic than it actually is. But still, there is probably nothing more irritating than feeling tired all of the time. I have been dealing with this for a very long time, actually. Probably almost three years now, if I am remembering correctly. It first started to truly blossom when I hit my era of depression, but even though I got out of that... the drowsiness has clung to me very tightly.
There are probably only a handful of times throughout the day when I don't feel sleepy. Thankfully I rarely feel the drowsiness when I'm at work, thanks to the fact that my job is physical, keeps me on my feet and moving all day. But it will hit at lunch break when I am stationary for thirty minutes. Usually I will get a second wind when I go back to work, but then when I get home it will hit again. The next time I get some life back in me is usually somewhere around 9:30-10pm, and usually I can ride that wave until bedtime around 12:30 or 1am.
Essentially, early on in this struggle of mine I was determined to not waste time, so basically what I do... is just fake it. Fake that I am really not tired, and I do things that I don't totally have the energy to do, but it's like... I refuse to waste time. Wasting time sometimes feels like the worst thing that I can do in my life, because yeah, while life doesn't end here on Earth, life here is still precious. So I fake it. Almost as if to hopefully trick my body into thinking it really isn't drowsy. Sometimes it works. Sometimes. But not often. It works most successfully when I am with other people, like Julia, or members of my family. It's a lot more difficult when I am alone.
But it seriously is one of the worst feelings you can experience. Because there are very few things that are worse than something that sucks away your energy and prevents you from being able to do anything so that, essentially, all you want to do is lie in bed all day... though, you realize that wouldn't help anything because that only makes you more sleepy.
Reading online I found that there are several things you can try. Perhaps changing up one's diet (I have never been a big "greens" eater, though not necessarily because I don't like them but just because I don't really think about getting them). I already drink tons of water every day. Adjusting the amount of hours one sleeps (I have tried multiple times with this, ranging from nine hours to five hours). Exercising (I already do this). And cutting down (or out) caffeine.
Now this latter one I haven't done, and perhaps it's something I may have to try. It's going to be difficult because I really like coffee, a lot. But at this point I am desperate to try just about anything if it means getting more energy. So I think I will attempt to cut down on coffee as well as increase my intake of greens.
If anyone has any additional tips please share them!
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